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  Steve looks over smiling. "Took you long enough." Rich laughs. "Tiny's got Prospects paintin. Bob, Driscoll, Bull and Danny are already escortin the pussies out."

  "Danny? What the fuck is he working High Security for?" What the fuck? They both look at me. They have the same fuckin look. I wait.

  "My dad always fills in. Chet is on mandatory vacation. That leaves Bob without a partner. Dad works best with Bob so I always pair them and switch up the other Teams." Rich says still watching for my reaction. I clench my jaw so I don’t say a fuckin word. Fuck! How often does this fuckin happen?

  "Office." Steve says. He's pissed. Fuck.

  I throw chin to Rich and walk out. Steve slams his door and rounds the desk sitting hard. "What the fuck Brother? Danny can't work without your fuckin approval now?"

  "Of course he can. He didn't say anything about workin High Security. He's the fuckin Building Super." I run my hands through my hair.

  "No, he's a fuckin Brother with the ability to do any fuckin job we ask of him. Two fuckin weeks ago he was cookin when Sam was sick. You ever had to wait for him to do his fuckin job?" He's watching me. Fuck, I don't even know what's going through my fuckin head.

  I sit down putting my head in my hands. "No he's always a fuckin couple of paces ahead. He doesn't talk about what he does during the day."

  "You ever ask him? Danny ain't a pussy, he won't hide it but he's not goin to advertise. High Security can't say shit about what they do anyway."

  I'm racking my brain. "I ask about his day but never asked him what he does. Fuck! How the fuck do I keep missing this shit?" I never look at him. I'm fuckin embarrassed about acting like a pussy in front of his fuckin son. Fuck!

  "Haven't seen the fuckin therapist have you?" He growls out.

  I look up. "No we have an appointment in two weeks. He had to finish up with a client before he could take more. Everything is going well though."

  "Just put doubt in Rich's head about his fuckin ability. Not goin fuckin well. What the fuck IS goin on?"

  "Fuck Brother, it's been better than I ever thought it could be. Danny showing in High Security fuckin hit me. What the fuck can I do to be on fuckin top here?"

  "Still competin with your fuckin self Ben. Guarantee Kate don't ask what he fuckin does with his day." He turns to his computer and pulls a report up. "You're President of the fuckin MC that makes up the whole fuckin town. Earned that fuckin respect, don't start losin it because you finally made it to happy. Stop fightin with yourself. Look at what you fuckin got. They're fuckin happier than I've ever seen them. Let the fuckin competition go." He's talking so low and slow. He's more than pissed.

  "I know you're a right. I can't get past this, he so fuckin good at everything."

  He takes a deep breath. "He is. Danny's the fuckin guy you can count on for anythin. He's your match in everythin he does. Difference is the jobs he does. He's fuckin happy to work High Security, keeps him sharp for when we need more from him. Other side of that; think livin with your fuckin MC Pres is easy? His fuckin house was like a circus before. Got fuckin Brothers in and out constantly now, give him respect but you're the fuckin Pres. Haven't heard a fuckin word about him begrudgin you that. Tiny don't talk but he wouldn't let that go." He pulls the report from the printer.

  "I didn't even think about that. Fuck. I need to watch who's coming by." I watch him, what the fuck has he got?

  He hands me the report. "Let me know when you feel is ok he can work. Get the dates to Rich so he can remake the fuckin schedule to suit your PMS cycles. Then get to the fuckin therapist. Your head is fucked."

  "Fuck Brother. I'm your fuckin President." I can't fuckin believe he just said that.

  "No you’re my fuckin Brother and closest family ridin down a path at sixty to a fuckin brick wall. You got my second doubtin his fuckin job out there because you’re fuckin Pres and know fuckin everythin! Get your fuckin feet under you Ben. You're gonna fuck it up if you don't." He's sincere in his words.

  Fuck! "You're so fuckin right. I've got to get a handle on this shit before I fuck it up." I give him his fuckin report. "How do I fix it with Rich? I know he's fuckin good at his job but I don't know him all that well."

  His head snaps back. "Livin in his father's fuckin house, he's there least three times a fuckin week and you don't know him?"

  "He's talking to Danny or playing with the kids. I've been meeting the Brothers in the garage." I run my hand through my hair. "I'm not living with the family, fuck. I fuckin act like Patches when he was Prospecting."

  He puts his hand on my arm looking me in the eye. "Best advice I can give; tell Brothers meet at your office or the club and start livin with your new family Ben. I'll deal with Rich."

  I nod. "Thanks Brother."

  "Get the fuck out so I can get my job done. Jess wants to go out to eat while Little Brothers meet. Got Natalie to watch Elizabeth." He smiles.

  Maybe I can take Kate out tonight. I get on my bike thinking of going over to the Center but I want to check the Prospects painting tags first. I hear the bikes before I see them. I follow the sound up to the reservation road. When I hear the shots I hit the gas. Two cars are chasing down two High Security. Fuck. I hear the other bikes but don’t see them. As I get closer Bob flies over the first car shooting out the back tires. Holy Fuck I’m fuckin proud of my Brother. I hear the other bike, the second car spins and starts going the other way. Danny flies out of the tree line shooting the tires out of the second car jumping the fuckin hood. It doesn’t stop. They look my way and Danny lifts his front tire and spins headed in my direction. Holy fuck he can ride that fuckin bike, he races forward jumping in front of the car. Bob comes along the side of it. The fuckin guys are shooting straight out at Danny. He lifts his front wheel again and spins facing them with his gun drawn. He reaches in his coat and pulls another pointing it at them. The fuckin car stops. I hear a bike coming from behind. Danny doesn’t take his eyes off the car. Bob pulls guys out one at a time laying them on the ground. The bike behind me pulls up to my side, I look and see Steve. What the fuck?

  “Thought you had work?” I ask watching the Brothers deal with the gang.

  “Was called out cause my fuckin Pres has a fuckin death wish.” He yells.

  I look at him. What the fuck? “Only so much I’m willing to let slide Brother. I’m still your fuckin President.”

  “My fuckin President wouldn’t park his fuckin bike in the middle of a fuckin gun fight unarmed actin like he’s watchin a fuckin movie. You put my fuckin team in jeopardy changin up and tryin to cover your fuckin ass. They were drivin the pussies to the res so the PD doesn’t fuckin clue in. This is not the fuckin place for this fuckin shit to go down!” He barks out at me lower than his initial yelling. I look at him wanting to punch him in the face for talking to me like I’m a fuckin Prospect. I look at the Brothers. No one is paying attention.

  “Earned more respect than what the fuck your showing VP. I wasn’t in danger at any point.” I reach behind me and pull my gun then reach into my saddle and pull the other. “I wasn’t needed; otherwise I would have shown them.”

  He fuckin laughs. “Was ready for a heart attack thinkin your head is so fucked you don’t even know what the fuck your doin anymore. No disrespect Pres. Was thinkin you needed to be protected.” He looks at the Brothers. “He didn’t show cause he wasn’t needed. I fucked it up Brothers. Should’ve let you run your plan.” He’s giving me respect back. I can’t be pissed at him for wanting to protect me.

  Danny laughs. “Worked out in the end, just waiting for transport and clean up to come out of the reservation.” Bob cracks up.

  Steve looks back at me. He’s embarrassed. “Really meant no disrespect Pres. Looks like I put them in danger. Not usually the one to fuck up. It sucks.”

  I laugh drawing the attention of the Brothers. I throw him chin, start my bike and put away my guns. I throw chin to everyone and leave. Fuckin Steve looking to save me? I must be showing him something for him to be that co
ncerned. He doesn’t make mistakes. Fuckin Danny rides his Ducati like it’s a fuckin BMX. He put himself right in front of me ready to take a fuckin bullet. Fuckin guy has no fear and comes out on top a-fuckin-gain. Digs will have the video sent to every fuckin Brother already. Fuck!

  I pull up to the Center. I need to see Kate. I’m unsure what to do here. We’re not advertising because of me not being comfortable yet but I need to see her. Fuck it. I walk in and right to her office. She’s on her computer but looks up at me when I walk toward her. I bend and kiss her like Danny does. Fuck I can’t fuckin escape him even kissing her. Len walks in and coughs. Fuck! I move away. She looks at me then at Len.

  “Did you need something Len?” She asks looking at me for a second before she turns to him.

  “I have an incoming, high security client. He’s a lawyer, moms at the hospital now. I can take this to Anita.” He looks from her to me. Fuck, I fucked this up.

  Kate looks at me then back to him. “Please. Let her know we have two open here in the yard and one at Baxter’s.” She gets up and grabs her purse. I step back. Fuck she’s pissed.

  Kate

  What the fuck? I’m going to have to deal with the whole damn office talking for however freakin long it takes to die down and hope the donors don't get wind of it. I tell Len to let Anita handle the client and get up to see what the hell this is all about. Shit I’m the freakin Director; I don’t need the fallout this could cause. People are going to think that I’m cheating on my husband. Fuck.

  “Why don’t we go have lunch?” I’m not really asking him. I walk out the door knowing he’s following. “Natalie, I’ll be gone for the rest of the day. If Danny calls in tell him I’m with Ben and we’ll meet him at home.” She nods at me and looks at Ben. Hopefully this will curb some of the chatter I’m sure he’s caused. We should have talked to the kids first. This is not the way this should have happened. He’s going to have to deal with some of this.

  “My bike is right here.” He says softly as I walk toward the corner.

  “Is this how you want to handle telling everyone about us? Me getting on your bike?” I ask looking at him. He looks down then back at me shaking his head no.

  “I’ll meet you at home.” I continue to my suv. What the heck happened that he’s doing this now? Danny would be pissed if I got on the back of his bike. Something's got him so upset today he's not thinking straight.

  He gets to the house before me and has the garage door opened. I park in the driveway and get out. Danny has the Ducati today; I need to leave him room to get it back in the safe room.

  “You’re not pulling in?” He asks.

  I look at him. His eyes are guarded. “Danny has the Ducati out. He’ll pull it in later.” I take his hand and walk into the house.

  Getting us water I bring it to the table and sit motioning him to the chair at the head of the table. He sits and puts his head in his hands. “I’m sorry Kate I fucked up everyone’s fuckin day today.”

  I wait until he looks at me. “Why?” I take one of his hands.

  “I’m so fuckin jealous. I’ve never been in this position and it’s fuckin with my head. Steve threw me out telling me to get to the fuckin therapist.”

  I can’t help it I crack up. “Danny is so much like you, just in different ways. Why the hell would you be jealous of him? I would think it would be the other way around.” I smile.

  “That’s what Steve said. I don’t know what the fuck is going on. He’s so fuckin good at everything he does. I just watched him jump over a car and spin his fuckin bike around like it was a kids two wheeler. He put himself in front of four guys holding guns because Steve told him to protect me. Like I fuckin need protection. It’s not a feeling I’m dealing well with, obviously. On top of all that I’m fuckin up with the family and you.”

  I hold my hand up. He’s serious. “Let’s take this one thing at a time. He IS good at everything he does. He worked hard to master those things. He practiced with a guy that was blind in one eye for months relearning how to ride his bike again. He didn’t get there without putting the work in. I doubt many other Brothers can say they spent that kind of time learning to ride.”

  “You’re right. He deserves the respect he gets for his skills. I honestly respect the fuck out of him.” He says a little dumbfounded shaking his head.

  “I don’t really think this is about Danny Ben. I’ve never met two men more alike than you two. Before we go there, what about fuckin up with the family and with me?”

  “Talking to Steve I realized that I’m not living here with my new family. I’m acting like Patches did when he was a Prospect. I just stay around the edges. I want to be part of the family not an addition you took in. I need to make that happen if I want people to treat me like I’m part of the family.” He is so freakin unsure of himself I’m shocked.

  “I’m glad you noticed. I was going to talk to you about that. I thought you were having second thoughts. I’d like you to be more involved in our lives. I love you Ben. I don’t want to lose you to something so stupid like jealousy.” I say softly. I feel tears burning my eyes.

  He pushes his chair out and pulls me to his lap. “Fuck, I’m so sorry Kate. I’m not trying to hurt you here. I want to make it right; I need some help with that though. I’m obviously not doing well on my own here. I’m so fuckin unsure of myself and my place. I wouldn’t mind a fuckin book of directions.” He kisses my head and I laugh.

  We hear Danny’s bike, he’s back early. “I think this is a better conversation for all of us anyway.” I tell him. He nods kissing my head again. He doesn’t look convinced though.

  I kiss him like I mean it hoping to relieve some of his stress. Danny comes in and Ben pulls away from me. I just look at him not sure what to say. Danny helps me out. “I find this a nice sight to walk into. Means it’s not as bad as I was imagining.” He smiles. I love my husband.

  I feel Ben’s body relax. “You’re back early.”

  “Steve pulled me in and told me to get home. Peg’s handling the Center gossip but told Jess to let him know what’s going on. He ordered me home to stop you from fuckin it up.” He’s ready to laugh and I smile at him. “I haven’t got a clue what the fuck is going on so you’ll have to fill me in.”

  “I am fuckin it up. He ordered me out of his office and to the therapist. I need to reel his fuckin ordering people around in.” Ben tells him.

  “Len caught Ben kissing me in my office. That’s where the gossip would be coming from. I’m glad Peg is dealing with it. It will stop before it gets around.” I tell him.

  “Len walked in your office?” He looks shocked.

  Ben takes in a breath. “In my infinite wisdom I did not close the door. I just walked in needing to see her and didn’t think about another fuckin thing.”

  “What the fuck was up with VP that he changed our plan earlier?” Danny asks Ben. I sit up and move to my chair.

  Ben looks at me then Danny. “Do you want your seat before we get into all that?”

  He smiles and shakes his head no. “I sit there out of habit. The seat holds no sentimental value to me.”

  Ben runs his hand through his hair. “I got to Security today and found out you were on the team. I was pissed, then I was feeling like I can never get ahead with you. No matter what I do I’ll never catch up. I’m so fuckin unsure of where I stand here. I’m not dealing with it but making it worse. Steve pointed out that I’m not really living with my new family. He’s right. I’m not going to meet the Brothers here after work. I need to focus on being a part of us. Then I went to see that the tags were painted over and heard the bikes. I followed. While I was there I watched you on the Ducati jumping over the car, spinning it around, then standing in front of four fuckin guns to catch a bullet aimed for me. Who the fuck does that? Steve showin pissed me off further, him thinking that I needed protection took me by surprise. I don’t go anywhere without a fuckin gun and my saddle carries another. I couldn’t get it out of my head; he really
thought I needed fuckin protection. I started wondering what the fuck I’m showing him and everyone else that he thinks I can’t take care of myself. I just kept burying myself from then on.”

  I hold Ben’s hand. Danny laughs. “Here I thought I was so fuckin far below you. Fuck, my President lives with me and Brothers grudgingly acknowledge me as they pass me by. The difference is I know Kate loves me for who I am. You have to see by now that she loves you too. Fuck, everyone else does. Aside from maybe Rich, but I think that’s because he doesn’t want to.” He smiles at me. I love him so freakin much.

  “I think you both need to know that I love you for who you are. You’re so much alike and so different it is hard to describe the love I feel for you both. Danny is no nonsense, just do it and rugged at the same time. He’s laid back and so freakin unassuming I can’t help but love him for his ability to do anything he puts his mind to. Ben you’re the quintessential king of the yard. You have a regal air about you; you’re so passionate and empathetic to everyone, never thinking about yourself. I love you’re sensitive manner. You fit like yin and yang. I don’t know how you don’t see all that. You should know I love you for it.”

  Danny smiles giving me a wink. Ben looks at me. “You really feel like that?”

  “Of course, I wouldn’t have said it if I didn’t. I don’t see whatever you see as lacking. Danny was so right when he said you have what he doesn’t and he has what you don’t. I don’t want another of Danny. I already have him. I need a Ben.” I lean over and kiss him.

  “Fuck that feels good. Thank you. So what do I need to do to fix what I fucked up today?” He says. I laugh.

  “It seems that Peg shut it down. I think we’re good there. Do you want to start telling people about us?” Danny asks him.

  “I need to get to where I’m not thinking you’re going to throw me out for fuckin up. I don’t mind waiting for that. If you think I fucked that up past fixing, it’s already out.” His hand goes in his hair.